I think about his birthday ALOT. I use to always count how many months he was on the 8th and I am so glad to be freed from that but his birthday, July 8th will always be a special day.
Love that sweet boy and I didn't want to forget I had this.
Xo
Tuesday, October 13, 2015
his birthday
I think about his birthday ALOT. I use to always count how many months he was on the 8th and I am so glad to be freed from that but his birthday, July 8th will always be a special day.
Love that sweet boy and I didn't want to forget I had this.
Xo
What a fun summer
What a summer- I have been saving some texts on my phone so I could blog about them.
So we got Seven Peaks season passes for a GREAT DEAL and asked baby boy's family if they wanted some and they said yes. We are so lucky to have such a fun open adoption.
So baby's dad couldn't make it to the Saturday event because he was working and then baby boy's mom, her phone died. She asked me to text baby dad about where we were and if he wanted to join us. This is our convo-
Me- Hey, are you coming? (baby's mom) phone died, we have a free pass for you.
Him- K, How is baby boy doing?
I am just so grateful for such a selfless father. He is always so worried about baby boy and where he is and how he is doing. I am really amazed by it. I think most men are just not like that and what a great quality. I always know I won't have to worry about baby boy because his dad is way more worried then I am.
I love baby boys mom too. I think she is really perfect for him but I always expected that so I don't write about it all the time. She is so good being consistent and so loving.
Saturday the mom called me and I got to facetime with them and it was so fun. Little boy is growing up so cute and is so fun. He has the best little checks and is so so cute. I miss him but am so happy with where his is.
On Sunday I met the most darling family, they have adopted 5 kids and I told her, I am a birth mom and she kinda got teary which made me get teary. Such an awesome bond we get to have with people around the world.
Adoption is just great. I would have never known for real if it weren't for a short year of my life of some pain, questions and a fight to be close to the Lord and know what was best.
I am beyond lucky to have the life I have with my now husband and looking back that pain was just for a moment.
I can't help but think of these scriptures. We are really so blessed.
Doctrine and Covenants 121:
7 My son, peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment;
We all know from reading my blogs these months and months weren't any form of easy. They were troubling and very painful. I can't help but have my thoughts go to Joseph Smith. The pain of being in prison and that pain and the Lord saying, it will be a moment. It really is just a moment. Though it FEELS like FOREVER in the moment. I did have so many friends to stand by me and I wasn't as Job.
Poor Job. He is always the last resort. You aren't as Job.
Really though, doesn't that look sad- I think these scriptures are going to be my ponderize.
"The word 'ponderize' is not found in the dictionary but it has found a place in my heart," Durrant said in his talk. He explained that "ponderizing" involved choosing a verse of scripture, putting it in a visible location, and pondering its meanings throughout the week.
Love this and his talk!
To my sweet baby-
We will always share a unique bond but I can see that as we are growing older we are going to loose a part of that specialness. Especially with having our own lives. It is just natural. I am sometimes sad by it but other times I am happy for us. I can't imagine always worrying about you and I don't think you will really ever understand the magnitude of how much I really care for you. Maybe someday when you have your own children. It is so hard to talk about in words but as I go through life I am just grateful for you. You taught me more then I would have ever been able to learn without you. I love you honey.
XOXO
Mama Alice
So we got Seven Peaks season passes for a GREAT DEAL and asked baby boy's family if they wanted some and they said yes. We are so lucky to have such a fun open adoption.
So baby's dad couldn't make it to the Saturday event because he was working and then baby boy's mom, her phone died. She asked me to text baby dad about where we were and if he wanted to join us. This is our convo-
Me- Hey, are you coming? (baby's mom) phone died, we have a free pass for you.
Him- K, How is baby boy doing?
I am just so grateful for such a selfless father. He is always so worried about baby boy and where he is and how he is doing. I am really amazed by it. I think most men are just not like that and what a great quality. I always know I won't have to worry about baby boy because his dad is way more worried then I am.
I love baby boys mom too. I think she is really perfect for him but I always expected that so I don't write about it all the time. She is so good being consistent and so loving.
Saturday the mom called me and I got to facetime with them and it was so fun. Little boy is growing up so cute and is so fun. He has the best little checks and is so so cute. I miss him but am so happy with where his is.
On Sunday I met the most darling family, they have adopted 5 kids and I told her, I am a birth mom and she kinda got teary which made me get teary. Such an awesome bond we get to have with people around the world.
Adoption is just great. I would have never known for real if it weren't for a short year of my life of some pain, questions and a fight to be close to the Lord and know what was best.
I am beyond lucky to have the life I have with my now husband and looking back that pain was just for a moment.
I can't help but think of these scriptures. We are really so blessed.
Doctrine and Covenants 121:
7 My son, peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment;
8 And then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high; thou shalt triumph over all thy foes.
We all know from reading my blogs these months and months weren't any form of easy. They were troubling and very painful. I can't help but have my thoughts go to Joseph Smith. The pain of being in prison and that pain and the Lord saying, it will be a moment. It really is just a moment. Though it FEELS like FOREVER in the moment. I did have so many friends to stand by me and I wasn't as Job.
Poor Job. He is always the last resort. You aren't as Job.
Really though, doesn't that look sad- I think these scriptures are going to be my ponderize.
"The word 'ponderize' is not found in the dictionary but it has found a place in my heart," Durrant said in his talk. He explained that "ponderizing" involved choosing a verse of scripture, putting it in a visible location, and pondering its meanings throughout the week.
Love this and his talk!
To my sweet baby-
We will always share a unique bond but I can see that as we are growing older we are going to loose a part of that specialness. Especially with having our own lives. It is just natural. I am sometimes sad by it but other times I am happy for us. I can't imagine always worrying about you and I don't think you will really ever understand the magnitude of how much I really care for you. Maybe someday when you have your own children. It is so hard to talk about in words but as I go through life I am just grateful for you. You taught me more then I would have ever been able to learn without you. I love you honey.
XOXO
Mama Alice
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