the bad why do I deserve the good

I met someone.

I told the baby and his mom all about him on my last visit with them.

I really really like him. I feel the spirit with him. I feel so much peace with him. I think he melts my heart.

I feel like because I have messed up so much that I don't deserve him. I don't know.... Oh man.

I can only deserve him from here on out. I will be everything for him now. I will make it work.

:)

Cutting babys hair

I love the sweet little boy that I got to cuddle and cut his "tail" of hair off.

Thanks babies mom who let me come and hold him as I rock him and chat with you.

I almost cried of joy just knowing I get to know her. I love them. SO much.

I have the hair in my wallet. Maybe it sounds weird but I LOVE it.I love him.

found me?

A visitor from Indianapolis, Indianaviewed "From the heart" 2 days 23 hours ago



This is where the birth dad is from.... did he find my blog? Did he see that I have been writing about him?
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These are  my thoughts these are all I have. I had to go private instantly when I saw that. I don't want him seeing anything that he should have missed out on. 
I am starting to have second thoughts but there is so much information about baby boy and stories with the family. I can't risk it. 
I am no to upset about it and maybe I will go public again but for now, I can't.
UGH