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I like being pregnant these days. I know shocker. I love feeling him move around and I know he is safe. I just LOVEEEE him. It is such an odd thing. Loving someone who I havne't ever met met and who is destroying my body. No big deal. I have two stretch marks. No big deal. I wake up starving every morning even when I eat cereal at 10 PM. He wakes up and moves from 11- 12AM. No big deal. Wakes up from 5-6 and moves around. No big deal. Right now I feel like my left top part of my tummy is going to pop from his arm or leg, no big deal.
My weeks are getting busy. I have my Lamaze class tonight for 2 hours, DR appointment tomorrow, religious appointment tomorrow, dentist appointment Thursday because I think baby stole some calcium from me and I might have a cavity. Hopefully not. I have my eye lash appointment Wednesday and a work deadline Friday. LOL My life is so fully of busy. I can't complain, that isn't a complaint. I am happy.
baby- seems as healthy as can be. Kicking punching moving sides. I really want to get an ultrasound just to stare at him and find where his body parts are so I know what is hitting the uterus or basically me.
emotional- I am doing really well. I have a couple friends going through hard things and I think I take their pains on me more then I use to. I have a heart of stone or something normally. I really wish the best for my friends.
ALICE
Monday, May 20, 2013
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
braxton hick woes, 32 weeks
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physically hard day
Last night I got a awful cramp in my left foot and couldn't walk on it. I went to Shopko and drove the scooter around the store. I got a night gown to wear at the hospital. I was really thirsty last night to and drank a lot. I drank 48 ounces of water and then woke up and drank more this morning.
I woke up at 7:45 AM and I have had these horrible period pains, that is all i can compare them too. Still have them and it is 9:38.
My sister said that it is what her Dr said that it is Braxton Hicks.
I think I am going to pass out.
I don't notice them when I am walking....
grrrrrrr- 32 weeks
not feeling great unless I am in the bath tub...
I called my DR and they are going to call me back.
Did I mention my shoulders are killing me too. I slept 7 and a half hours and really I could go back to sleep right now.
cheers
Alice
physically hard day
Last night I got a awful cramp in my left foot and couldn't walk on it. I went to Shopko and drove the scooter around the store. I got a night gown to wear at the hospital. I was really thirsty last night to and drank a lot. I drank 48 ounces of water and then woke up and drank more this morning.
I woke up at 7:45 AM and I have had these horrible period pains, that is all i can compare them too. Still have them and it is 9:38.
My sister said that it is what her Dr said that it is Braxton Hicks.
I think I am going to pass out.
I don't notice them when I am walking....
grrrrrrr- 32 weeks
not feeling great unless I am in the bath tub...
I called my DR and they are going to call me back.
Did I mention my shoulders are killing me too. I slept 7 and a half hours and really I could go back to sleep right now.
cheers
Alice
Thursday, May 9, 2013
3rd person
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1st person who asked if I was pregnant was at church and just asked her how far along she was and she said, are you pregnant?
2 the man at Sams club selling heat packs and cold packs
3. Today, he said "I see your an expectant mother, I said I am placing the baby. He was so uncomfortable. I asked him of course a question. How did you know I was pregnant. He said I can mostly tell in your face, the tired eye, fatigue. I could have punched him right there.
I think for the most part it is uncomfortable when someone places. We as humans assume everyone has the perfect life. Married, best husband in the world or other wonderful children. NOPE, I am placing the baby. It is the hardest thing that I have been doing. It weighs on me. It isn't easy.
4th person, happy mothers day at the post office. Am I a mother if I am prego? I don't feel like it.
1st person who asked if I was pregnant was at church and just asked her how far along she was and she said, are you pregnant?
2 the man at Sams club selling heat packs and cold packs
3. Today, he said "I see your an expectant mother, I said I am placing the baby. He was so uncomfortable. I asked him of course a question. How did you know I was pregnant. He said I can mostly tell in your face, the tired eye, fatigue. I could have punched him right there.
I think for the most part it is uncomfortable when someone places. We as humans assume everyone has the perfect life. Married, best husband in the world or other wonderful children. NOPE, I am placing the baby. It is the hardest thing that I have been doing. It weighs on me. It isn't easy.
4th person, happy mothers day at the post office. Am I a mother if I am prego? I don't feel like it.
31 weeks and 4 days
658 posts
quick post
Good news- I will be meeting with my stake president for the remainder of my time through this healing. I am just thrilled. Tonight is my first appointment with him.
I have to add this. I understand why people get offended and leave the church. First my first bishop tells someone and that really hurt. I move to a family ward and then can't get in contact with anyone, bishop, appointment's setter upper, relief society... trying everything. I was going to church but it is embarrassing to try to call some one and they finally they thought I should be in the singles ward and thought i was just calling the wrong number. AWESOME. Then told the bishops wife after she didn't call me back I called her again and said I am single and pregnant and really need to talk to the bishop. Started meeting with him 2 weeks later. Then we met and then he couldn't meet for 3 so 3 weeks later on an important meeting he didn't even set the appointment in his calender and he didn't tell me that we were canceling. I just never felt important to him. He kept making excuses for why we couldn't get my life on a plan and why we couldn't do such and such. IT WAS SO HARD! This is vague but i have to respect him. I know he is a good man just not perfect. I sustained him in ward conference and I stand by my word. It is easy to get offended and leave the church. Satan wants us to do that. Unfortunately that isn't my challenge. I love the church. I love my Lord. He loves me and although I have no control except to keep going on my end. I still can have the Lord with me. He loves me and He loves you. He doesn't want us to feel neglected or forgotten. He has been neglected and forgotten. He was forgotten when He was on the earth and He is forgotten by us here on the earth. May I not ever forget Him.
Baby- He is an acrobat, or at least that is what he feels like in my belly. He wakes up 11-12 and 5-6 and swims or flies. I am not sure which. Either way he loves the belly and still loves baths and showers in the womb.
Me, physically- first stretch mark. It is on my underwear line so not even on my belly but it is there Nice and proud.
Me, emotionally- I am sure things happen for a reason but not knowing the future is a delicate situation. My life is up to judges and people who don't know me. How can this be? I think they should do emotional testing and everything that they have adoptive couples go through. It isn't cool. Not one bit.
Me - Work- I have been working 6 days a week 10 hour days. ROUGH and TOUGH! I am sure things will work out but
I asked for a blessing last night, just needed some peace and in it there were interesting things said. Sometimes what people do to affect our lives is a challenge and a heart ache and wakes us up for hours in the night.
I still feel like I have NO CONTROL. Either baby goes to a family who isn't perfect but very close and I watch the baby be raised or I single parent and put the baby in day care and then the baby doesn't love me as much as he loves the day care and dropping him off would be HEART BREAKING for me. Then if the dad is put in custody by the state then I have to worry as he has him. No control. Of course I feel the best about the family, because it is the most logical and feels the best for the baby.
quick post
Good news- I will be meeting with my stake president for the remainder of my time through this healing. I am just thrilled. Tonight is my first appointment with him.
I have to add this. I understand why people get offended and leave the church. First my first bishop tells someone and that really hurt. I move to a family ward and then can't get in contact with anyone, bishop, appointment's setter upper, relief society... trying everything. I was going to church but it is embarrassing to try to call some one and they finally they thought I should be in the singles ward and thought i was just calling the wrong number. AWESOME. Then told the bishops wife after she didn't call me back I called her again and said I am single and pregnant and really need to talk to the bishop. Started meeting with him 2 weeks later. Then we met and then he couldn't meet for 3 so 3 weeks later on an important meeting he didn't even set the appointment in his calender and he didn't tell me that we were canceling. I just never felt important to him. He kept making excuses for why we couldn't get my life on a plan and why we couldn't do such and such. IT WAS SO HARD! This is vague but i have to respect him. I know he is a good man just not perfect. I sustained him in ward conference and I stand by my word. It is easy to get offended and leave the church. Satan wants us to do that. Unfortunately that isn't my challenge. I love the church. I love my Lord. He loves me and although I have no control except to keep going on my end. I still can have the Lord with me. He loves me and He loves you. He doesn't want us to feel neglected or forgotten. He has been neglected and forgotten. He was forgotten when He was on the earth and He is forgotten by us here on the earth. May I not ever forget Him.
Baby- He is an acrobat, or at least that is what he feels like in my belly. He wakes up 11-12 and 5-6 and swims or flies. I am not sure which. Either way he loves the belly and still loves baths and showers in the womb.
Me, physically- first stretch mark. It is on my underwear line so not even on my belly but it is there Nice and proud.
Me, emotionally- I am sure things happen for a reason but not knowing the future is a delicate situation. My life is up to judges and people who don't know me. How can this be? I think they should do emotional testing and everything that they have adoptive couples go through. It isn't cool. Not one bit.
Me - Work- I have been working 6 days a week 10 hour days. ROUGH and TOUGH! I am sure things will work out but
I asked for a blessing last night, just needed some peace and in it there were interesting things said. Sometimes what people do to affect our lives is a challenge and a heart ache and wakes us up for hours in the night.
I still feel like I have NO CONTROL. Either baby goes to a family who isn't perfect but very close and I watch the baby be raised or I single parent and put the baby in day care and then the baby doesn't love me as much as he loves the day care and dropping him off would be HEART BREAKING for me. Then if the dad is put in custody by the state then I have to worry as he has him. No control. Of course I feel the best about the family, because it is the most logical and feels the best for the baby.
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