the adoptive mom lost her best friend and she said to me, I thought I do have a best friend, you.
Those weren't her exact words because I forgot to write it down and but that was the idea.
The other thing is she just called me because this the time she would normally call her best friend.
Her best friend was our mutual friend. It has been really really tough losing her. She was amazing, our friend. I love them both and can't wait to play ring around the rosy with them in heaven.
Life is hard. Life is full of ups and downs. Loosing baby boy then my x was really hard and loosing her is for sure hard.
Grieving is a familiar feeling. I have done this lots. Right now, where am I? I think I am back to denial. Or something. I just can't really believe it. I miss her, this lovely angel in my life.
Writing and music is how I heal. On my real blog I am writing up a STORM but I just can't seem to get over things. I can't get over the friend I had in common with the adoptive mom had to die. It really crushes me. Our friend would love that we are growing closer because of it. She would LOVE that but she would want to be here. What is life like after this life? Why do we have to be alone, I know she is with us. I want to run to her husband and wrap my arms around him. Oh that poor single dad. He said the other night, I am not a very good mother.
I don't think anyone thinks, I am a great mother. I think we are always progressing. I want to see life in the next year and see where he is. I want to see my life for heavens sake.
"Wings"(Single Digital Version)
Sunlight comes creeping in
Illuminates our skin
We watch the day go by
Stories of all we did
It made me think of you
It made me think of you
Under a trillion stars
We danced on top of cars
Took pictures of the stage
So far from where we are
They made me think of you
They made me think of you
Oh lights go down
In the moment we're lost and found
I just wanna be by your side
If these wings could fly
Oh damn these walls
In the moment we're ten feet tall
And how you told me after it all
We'd remember tonight
For the rest of our lives
I'm in a foreign state
My thoughts they slip away
My words are leaving me
They caught an aeroplane
Because I thought of you
Just from the thought of you
Oh lights go down
In the moment we're lost and found
I just wanna be by your side
If these wings could fly
Oh damn these walls
In the moment we're ten feet tall
And how you told me after it all
We'd remember tonight
For the rest of our lives
If these wings could fly
Oh lights go down
In the moment we're lost and found
I just wanna be by your side
If these wings could fly
Oh damn these walls
In the moment we're ten feet tall
And how you told me after it all
We'd remember tonight
For the rest of our lives
Illuminates our skin
We watch the day go by
Stories of all we did
It made me think of you
It made me think of you
Under a trillion stars
We danced on top of cars
Took pictures of the stage
So far from where we are
They made me think of you
They made me think of you
Oh lights go down
In the moment we're lost and found
I just wanna be by your side
If these wings could fly
Oh damn these walls
In the moment we're ten feet tall
And how you told me after it all
We'd remember tonight
For the rest of our lives
I'm in a foreign state
My thoughts they slip away
My words are leaving me
They caught an aeroplane
Because I thought of you
Just from the thought of you
Oh lights go down
In the moment we're lost and found
I just wanna be by your side
If these wings could fly
Oh damn these walls
In the moment we're ten feet tall
And how you told me after it all
We'd remember tonight
For the rest of our lives
If these wings could fly
Oh lights go down
In the moment we're lost and found
I just wanna be by your side
If these wings could fly
Oh damn these walls
In the moment we're ten feet tall
And how you told me after it all
We'd remember tonight
For the rest of our lives
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