Happy mother's day to everyone and me

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SO I woke up in Pocatello Idaho. I had a 6 bedroom apartment to myself so naturally my boyfriend came. While he was still sleeping and I was about to cook breakfast I got a call from my baby's mom and my baby. Is he still a baby because he is under 2? He talks and does the cutest stuff. Anyways, they called me and sang me a song.

Happy Mother's day
Happy Mother's day
Happy Mother's day
Happy Mother's day
Happy Mother's day

It was in my head the rest of the day- that sweet boys voice and his sweet mommy. I love them both.

It really melted my heart. It really is the little things.

I told my friend in September about baby boy and she sent me the nicest, thoughtful text.

Happy Mother's Day! I see the love you have for (baby boy) and what a wonderful mom you are to him. Hope you feel loved and appreciated today for the special mom that you are!! Love you!!

My friend that the birth dad told who has been my friend for ages sent one too.

"I woke up thinking about you this morning and wanted to wish you a Happy Mother's day! You are the most selfless kind of mother there is. Love you! I hope your day is great.

My dad wished me a happy mother's day which was SUPRISING and so did my sweet sis.

My cousin got me feet stuff for Mothers day- I JUST LOVE it too. It is from Melaeuca and I recommended it for sure.



and about 15 mintues ago I got this from the babies mom.

I'm just making dinner and watching (baby boy) play with his doggy outside and am overwhelmed with love and gratitude to God for him. Thanks for trusting me to be his mom. Thanks for  serving a mission and being so wonderful to (our common friend and my mission comp that passed) so that we have that connection. Oh my.. I feel like I'm writing a love letter. Ha ha. but seriously I am so grateful for you and what a wonderful birth mommy you are. (baby boy) is the luckiest.


I AM THE LUCKIEST.

I hear stories of other birth moms and the adoptive mom doesn't let the birth mom take pictures with the baby or they don't send pictures. On our end we went over to my friends house for dinner on Saturday and it was so normal. I kissed the heck out of that sweet little boy and my friends little girl too. I just love them both but I just want that sweet baby boy to always know I am so loving him, forever. He is SO SO cute. I miss him each time I am not with him and wish I could be with him always but I am so happy he has a loving environment that he learns Spanish and he grows up with his cousins and he doesn't get bounced around. I always worry that he will one day hate that I did that to him- placed him for adoption but he would hate me worse for bouncing him between two parents and that is one more reason why adoption felt and feels so right.

That is the one thing that I am grateful for. I might feel like my heart is walking on the outside of my body in a whole different zip code but I couldn't be happier for the environment he is growing up in. HE IS SO CUTE.

I am so grateful for open adoption. It is different but it is normal- at least for me.

Happy mothers day to all the woman I know.

Oh that sweet boyfriend of mine made me breakfast the next day and he made sure I got a rose when we went to lunch( we were out of town so we did go out on Sunday) My most favorite part of him was when he came up behind me when he first woke up and hugged me from behind and whispered in my ear, happy mothers day.

I AM A FREAKING MOM- though I feel like a single mom without a baby I am a mom. I get my moments with the sweetest babe in the world and like my other friend said, having a baby is like crack you just want more and your body craves is.

I can't wait till I have a baby and make babies with my baby. a baby being a husband of course.

I dream of that, I never use to till this sweet little boy grew up a body in my belly.

Once again- I love you all. I love this and I love love.

mama alice.