openness

Most people are so baffled by open adoption, honestly I don't really get it. Well, that is a lie, I use to be the same way and I use to think that I wanted a closed adoption.

side note as I type this little e is trying to eat my hands, his hands and everything. he is sitting on my lap and I am bouncing him as I type.

 okay so openness. It is strange right. I think because I have never really seen adoption from a birth mom. I don't think really anything is ever going to be in aggreance about what a birth mom feels or anyone for that matter because we are all different.

I can't help but compare adoption to animals. Have any of you seen this video?




I watched this and thought of being a birth mom. I hate that feeling of buying life. Buying a dog. I have such a hard time with it. Buying. That is why I won't ever be able to sell pups. I remember when I was a teenager and my dog had pups and we sold all but one of them... she got ran over by a truck later and she never ever chased trucks before then. I think now it was suicide of a broken heart. She wasn't the same dog after, she was so grouchy and angry. Can you blame her?

That is why birth moms have to be 100% no regrets.

Yes, of course someday we will get a dog but I have crazy feelings about it. Maybe we will adopt because there are so many abandoned animals. THAT BREAKS MY HEART. BIG TIME.

So why are we so open? For the health of it. :) It is so easy. Natural and we keep the golden rules. Being honest. Communication and we have boundaries that we respect. There are other things with that but those are the 3 that come to mind-

I could write about 8 million more things but time is up-


Mama Alice.

Upgrading to initials

I know big steps are happening over here but things are getting out of control with having to say so many things and when I use to feel so secretive about this blog I would say this is a step forward for me in being more open about my secret life. Though I do feel it is sacred. Secret and Sacred. So if I have shared this with you or anyone that I love has shared this with you, you are important to us. I really only write what I feel in my heart.

Ironically the song, "I bet my life on you" Gosh I love that sweet blonde hair boy born years ago. This was all for him and for me. I honestly don't know if he will ever read this or even have the desire but if he does, he will know of my love, pain and care I have for him and his family. I will never stop loving that sweetie.

Okay- here we go. I am going to do this in alphabetical order.

A- me- I am Mama Alice. It is my pen name.

C- My husband. We were married in 2015 on the 15th. :) He is mine and he is good.

C- P's mom. She is my sweet baby boy's adoptive mom. She is incredible, nothing short of it.

E- My sweet baby with my hubs. He was born in 2016. He has two half siblings. :)

J-  P's dad. He is P's adoptive dad. He has a kind heart that is naive in a way that is genuine.

P- This is the sweet baby that was born in 2013 & was adopted & sealed to is parents February 2014.

S- My step daughter. Born in 2013 and loves this awesome family.



These are the main peeps.