best dream

Dearest baby boy,

I had a dream with you. You were with me and my mom and dad and my family. For some reason your mom and dad had to go and do something and they had you with me. You were so reserved taking everything in and then boom- you were talking like wild. You were a good little talker. At first you were the age you are now, about 8 to 9 months and then you were 16 or 18. Dreams are weird. 

You looked like my sisters girls. My mom and I kept talking about it and you were like why is this important. 

Then we started talking about your parents.

You were such a tease- get that from your daddyo and the talking and love of people from your sweet mommy. It was so so so soosoooooo fun to see you. Your eyes were so pretty. I keep thinking about that. I don't remember your hair but your hands were huge. You would put them up for everyone to see how much bigger they were from mine and then everyone. You were long, strong and lean. Cute as can be and a warm spirit which isn't a surprise.

Your parents came and we all sat down and chatted and you brought your dog. The dog was nervous and peed a little- HAHAHA

It was really fun. 

We talked about your parents and the little things about them that make us all love them. 

Talked about how protective your dad is and then how your mom falls in love with people. You laughed and it was just a the best. 

I love you baby boy.

My heart burns that this is how it was meant to be. It will always be so hard that I didn't get you forever but God tells me in my heart that you are where you are supposed to be.

So I woke up and minutes before I had a text from your mom of a picture with you and crazy blonde hair. 

VERY cute. 

I texted her back that I had a dream about you and she called me! I have missed her. 

Your mom and I talked on the phone and she is the sweetest, funniest and most fun woman around. She has such a kind, sensitive heart. Her laugh and even the tones of her voice are enough to melt my heart. She is your mom and she loves you. She wants the best for you.

I love you baby boy. 

XOXO

MAMA ALICE