Merry Christmas

I can’t explain all the emotions that I have through the Christmas season or use to without little P. It was really hard. This year with baby E has been the best year for Holidays and stuff. I honestly didn’t buy him anything to open on Christmas and didn’t feel it was important to do it because I just don’t think a baby who is 7.5 months really cares. We did buy him this little Zoo thing a few weeks ago and then the day after Christmas we got him a huge dog that he saw and started smiling/laughing at. Parents can’t help that sometimes.

 

There is my light for you. I think I will forever have a loss of not having little P but having my own family and child really makes up for it in a little way.

 

 

 

 

 

 

We had the BEST Christmas eve with J, C and P. It was just my hubs and our baby. We went over and gave P a tank and army guys that E gave him and then a couple Christmas books that I love. I got the same books for E. (okay I guess I got him some things haha) We chatted a bit and C took care of little E. Oh he loves her. Then J rode with my hubs and E and I rode with C and P and we went to Wingers for dinner. It was so nice. J carried baby E and my hubs said he wanted to. They are so good with kiddos and make us so happy with how much they love on little E and want to hold him. They say they are getting their baby fix. They told us they want to watch E for us for either dinner or outing or overnight and my goodness, are they saints or what? My hubs of course told them overnight. HAHAHAH that stinker.

 

My sweet C has lost her dad this year and the holidays are SO tough. They really are when we lose someone. At dinner my hubs asked C if she was mad at him. He is SO honest. She told him no and held back tears as she told us it has been a rough season. (she told me in the car, I teared up but didn’t cry) isn’t she so sweet and tender. I love her heart. I love my hubs too because he reached out and side hugged her.

 

I really have been hard on my husband and he has “repented and come to Jesus” he and Jeff worked things out. Very nice to have a husband who is so open and feels like this relationship is normal and fun. We really are lucky to have such a great relationship.

 

Okay P-

You are growing up so fast and sassy and it is so fun. I played army and police with you and it was so funny. You are very imaginative and happy. It is so fun to watch you feed baby brother E and be so attentive to him. You are such a great brother. I love you sweet boy, Merry Christmas. I hope you grow to love those books like we do.