I don't want to forget these cute things

4 year olds are so so fun and you are no exception Mr. P. You are so cute and so great with your half little babies. E (16 month old) love being with you and really laughs so much. You are also a happy guy and always laughing, teasing, wrestling and watching out for those around you.

Your life is really good and it makes me so happy to see you happy.

I don't want to forget this cute thing that happened in August. You came over to meet your half baby sis and I was breastfeeding and you asked about it. (you asked about pumping on your birthday last year when I pumped in your room for E) Well, we were sitting over in the recliner as I was nursing sis and you said, "your my birth mom, she's my half sister, he's my half brother and he (pointing to my hubs C) he is my birth dad."

It was SO darling and my hubs has been going through some things with his step daughter and I know it made him so happy.

SOmeday you will realize C isn't your birth daddy and some other dude is but C will and does care for you. He love being with you and seeing you. He loves your parents and though at first it was kinda new for him he says it feels normal.

You are so lucky and we are so lucky that your parents and my family are so happy having all of us so close together.

If someday you (or your parents) don't want to be in our lives and you think we are silly we will understand but until then we are enjoying every moment.

My other favorite thing------

My family all lives out of state. It is really hard on me and sad for me. I talk to my mom often but it is hard to keep in contact with those you love if they don't live near by.

You and your mommy came to watch E and I for C and me to go on an anniversary dinner. When we got back I asked you what the best part of babysitting was and you said, "sitting" hahahahaha oh you made me laugh and laugh.

This is the note I sent your dad for Fathers day.

Happy Father's day J! I thought about you yesterday and really,  thank you for being the best dad to P. You two are so great. I will never forget the times when I was pregnant and came over sitting on the porch and you were waiting on C and me.  It's really endearing how kind you are.  P is a great little guy and will be an amazing man because of you.  You and C are great parents.  I will never and have never regretted placing him into you and C arms.  God is good and God knew.  Anyways,  it seems forever ago because now,  you guys feel like friends, it is blessed.  We miss you!  xo 


I love your family and I love you cute dude.

Love your birth mommy-