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I remember being prego November 2012 and asking Charity ( my caseworker) if adoptive parents ever say no. She said maybe 1% but not to worry.  I was so worried about that and then when I had found the first family and then they told me no (because they were prego with their cute girl a day after me) I was Devastated. I felt like we broke up. It was tough.

The second family I ended things with on father's day, I still feel bad about that if you ever read this- but I always wondered how they felt. I always hoped and pretended in my head that they got prego. Hopefully they did.

Anyway. What I have been thinking about.

Little boy was going to get a cute little sister from Indiana but the birth mom decided to go a different route. She choose to keep her little girl in the same state as her. She called me on the phone a few weeks ago and she cried and I had never talked to her before. I told her she had to do what she felt 100% on and nobody could talk her in or out of it. If she felt 100% that she needed to do something else then she should. Doesn't make it easy on us that were so excited for a baby girl to come into the family I love so much but I do support the birth mom and whatever she chooses I hope she is 100%.

I love that adoptive mom was SO cool about it even though it is a horribly hard thing.

It is a odd feeling, being told no. I love this family. We are really close and closer since I got married and my husband has a 3 year old who is 6 months older then little boy and they play and since we had a baby. We are just in the same group, family group. My husband loves them as we all do and I think they love us - haha they do. We are more friends then birth mom.

So on Labor day we went to Seven Peaks with them. Adoptive mom took care of little E (our 4 month old) and she loved it and we loved it. She is so good with everyone especially babies. I mean that so much. She just makes everyone feel like they are the most important thing in the world. I loved talking to Adoptive dad while we picked tomatoes. That was maybe my favorite talk I have ever had with him. The first thing that little boy said when I walked in was we aren't getting a baby sister anymore then he called E baby sister all day and we had to keep saying no baby brother. E will be a great little half bro for little dude. I am sure they will love playing soon. :)

Well, just an update that "we aren't getting a baby sister" and it is hard but we are grateful for what we have and we will trust in God.

Writing is so therapeutic for me.

WRITE everyone. I will read-

Love MaMa Britt.

PS I just got the CUTEST video of little guy from his darling mom. (adoptive mom)

I need to start using initials because it is cray. :)