26 weeks and 4 days and being MIA

HELLO 530 views. I wonder if that is accurate.. just doesn't seem possible.

Sometimes I forget I am not invincible and I let down my shield of bravery and independence and I feel things. My parents and my sister and her adorable twins came and stayed with me. It spoiled me. I had someone around me and I got to love them and be so happy. I wasn't quite so glued to my phone or even staying up on my spiritual readings because it is so much harder to do when your family comes and you can talk to them or read about people from millions of years ago. Obviously I want to talk to them then fall asleep reading about million year old people. Last night I got caught up though so that is good. I had missed feeding my soul and feeling it love me back.

Baby- I had an appointment two Fridays ago. It went really good. The c family came up and we got to spend time together for a bit then go to DR, pee in a cup and then hear babies quick little heart beat. I think I finally proved I have a baby for them. I was feeling like a real woman about then. Like, look I didn't lie. It is so sweet to have them there and my wonderful cousin. Everyone needs a she daddy like my cousin.

Baby is so so fun to feel the baby boy. I love that the C family mama was able to feel him a couple weeks ago when I was visiting. it is just so fun to turn on a movie and put my hand on my tummy and feel him kick. He likes to kick really big from 4-5 and at night from 10-11. It is a joy of being the birth mama.


Me-I had a breast ultrasound for a lump that in forming on my left lower side of my breast. If the nipple is the center of the clock it would be in between 1 and 2. That was nerve wrecking the day of the ultrasound and my parents fasted for me which helped my nerves but everything came out normal. I even got to see the milk ducks that are forming. It was kinda nice and the DR didn't have to see my whole body or nipple or anything so that was nice. He did ask something funny, have you ever been told your breasts are lumpy? Ummm no and he asked something else before that was funny too, like have you had children? I forgot to tell him I was prego.

other little things
I am starting to show, my bra size has increased to
I am mourning the loss of my virginity
I have horrible acid and heart burn
I am getting uncomfortable. Moving isn't quite as easy as it use to me.
I am excited to eat raw fish again.
I wake up at night and can't sleep and usually baby wakes up with me so we shower
I love having a constant cuddle buddy
I love that I can't eat very much and I HAVE to get my nutrients
He loves spiritual stuff. He is most awake when I am at church or a fireside or meeting or class that I feel the spirit. HE LOVE IT  I am assuming because he feels it and loves it. He will be a riot to take to church.
This is sacred not secret.
From God's arms to my arms to yours is constantly going in my head
I have been getting attached and understand now how much more placement is going to be hard and it will be something that stays with me for the rest of my life
This is a test of my charity.
I feel so close to God bringing a miracle into the world


I needed an emotional break from the blog. I just needed to breath and think and now I am back on track again. I keep thinking next week I will be closer and next week I will be closer.