29 Weeks and one day

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Physically- I am doing pretty well. When I am active and working out, like going to my gym and doing Zumba or walking my tummy tightens up VERY VERY HARD. It is amazing. I have the hardest tummy of my life an the biggest. Last week I measured at 28 cm at the doctor and I haven't gained any weight. I am sure nobody really cares how much a weigh but I lost 20 pounds and still haven't gained. Actually last week I gained 2 pounds and this week I haven't gained any. I guess for being obese that is normal though. My doctor isn't worried at all and it is her job to worry and my job to be happy.

I wake up starving every morning. It is awesome.

Emotionally- I don't talk to my family as much. It is just to much now. I don't know why I don't talk to them but maybe there is TO Much going on in my working life that my personal life is going on the back burner or I just don't know. I am confident they are getting excited and are happy to have baby but things are so much in the air with things being 100 percent sure and done I just can't get excited either way. I have to be okay with placement and okay with single parenting and I can't find a balance in those so why not ignore both until it goes the way it goes?

Spiritually- Ever since our general conference I have felt so ignored and abandoned spiritually. I am REALLY trying to get everything perfect in my life and I am reading and trying to have perfect kind thoughts but I just feel like I am going through a time that I just want to be a full accepted member and I realize the road a head is a long one. Something I will not do again.

Life is good though. I am really really happy and at peace in a big way.

Alice