the temple

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I was just writing my little baby's mommy and I forgot about an awesome experience I had on Saturday. I went to the temple and I was given 5 names and 3 of the names had his middle name in it. It made my heart SWELL. I just couldn't help but be so happy that I could be helping people that were related to him. He has a common middle name and it more then likely isn't his relatives but just maybe it is.

baby's mommy was telling me how he loves music and that makes me happy. I knew he likes church music but I wasn't sure about the other. I am so glad. I think music is amazing. I don't really know if your interests are related but his birth dad likes music and so do I.

I know his mommy likes it and I am glad she plays it for him.

I LOOOVE him so much and I am grateful nothing is just by chance. Tender mercies surround us constantly.

I haven't really been sad for a long time. Last night I started to feel sad and then I just started praying and reciting scriptures in my head and I felt God wrap His arms around me and the atonement heal me a little more.

I am mean to feel sad, I am meant to feel and I am happy when I do. Sometimes I start to get worried that I should be more sad like I was in July but really I am THRILLED!

I want to be the Martin Luther of Adoption and birth moms.

I want to be the one that stand for truth and though I stand for truth I will get burned and beat with words and hurt but it will be those few people that I touch.... I am just not ready to do that yet. Hopefully soon. HOPEFULLY!