letter from the adoptive mom

WOAH- the adoptive mom wrote quite the letter to me last night.

Oh well.

I am kinda proud of her. She sounded more like a mom last night then ever. She was protective and strong. Things I write on my blog espeically when I am grieving isn't the real me- I know there are expectations that won't and can't be met. We are all our own person.

What I learned-
1. We are both VERY open and blunt and it does hurt the other feelings.
2. She is going to stop reading my blog-
3. She remembers telling me stuff but I don't...
4. She can be mean and I think this is the first time, which is hard when you are already sad but I am proud of her.
5. She is a talker. Sometimes we talk to heal even at 12 at night
6. Things that are important to her aren't imporatant to me
7.  She is going through a hard time
8. She doesn't have time to do stuff
9. She can't read my mind

It is funny knowing she isn't going to read the blog.

To all my friends out there, to those who this blog helps and I love you! We can make it...
For me I still am needing my space but I am not sure what we decided.
I am not going to the birthday- she said so quick- That's fine. I am not sure what that means?

To baby boy,
You are still loved.