june 8

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June 8Th Email To My Case Worker.... I NeverSent It To Her. I Just Think It's Healthy To Reflect And Ponder. I Just Think This Is Exactly HOw I Felt For many nights



My heart is so sad..

For months and months, up until mothers day when i told my sister and i went through the trite feelings of possibly single parenting i hadn't really thought about it. I didn't care to single parent, all i wanted was to have a baby for the family. I wanted to do for them the biggest and best gift ever.

Now with changes of situations and but knowing how serious the birth dad is about being a father in this babies life, I'm really taking s tough road. The toughest.

I just want to feel whole again.

I never knew one night and less then 5 seconds would change my body for 9 months, my emotions, my entire existence. This baby will always be my baby. We have snuggled in my bed together at night, we have gone to dinner together, we went to the temple together last night. Whenever i start to think that now I'm alone because of my situation. He's there to kick me back to my senses.

I don't like infertility at all. This is one part of life that frustrates me and i don't understand. I think it helps us understand the higher laws. I really know God loves us