dear sister

Sister, i am so grateful for you. Thank you for all your love and support. You make my life easier. It does break my heart a little when i think i could have a baby and your girls could have a cousin. I think it hurts the most when i think about you and mom. She could be a grandma. My friend wrote about a bad situation turning out good. Sister, things in life are hard. They are sad. The first two weeks after placement i couldn't keep it together. Every morning I'd cry. Even now, i see a baby and think of my baby. I see a pregnant lady and think of how i miss being pregnant. I have to remember. I'm promised a family. I will marry someday. I'll have children again. You are a strength to me. You are love. I know telling you was so hard but I'm glad you know. My pride wanted to protect you from this pain but the truth is, i need you. Xoxo