dear birth dad

, thank you for all your love and concern for me and our baby. I had a beautiful baby boy on July 8th. He was 6lbs 15 oz and 21 inches long. He was placed into a wonderful family. As we talked this was a plan i had considered and wanted since November. In December i had found the perfect couple. I thought this would be my babies parents. At the end of December they told me the spirit told them not to move forward with adopting. That was a difficult response and sad. The next month i was busy with work and reading profiles and was feeling i wouldn't find anyone as great as my first family. February i emailed 3 families and felt connected to one family. For the following months i felt good, then okay with this family. They were there for me in difficult times and helped support me. That didn't stop the doubts. I then started making a single parent plan. I set up day care, got prices for things, made lists. As i was attending my birth classes i knew the birth was coming and i still didn't know one way or the other. I didn't feel my baby was safe in any circumstance and it was unsettling. I still felt really good about adoption, yet there was something missing and I couldn't figure it out. When i met the third family at the agency I felt a peace that never left me (and still hasn't.) I felt that burning in my soul. This was what i was waiting for. This is what God wanted and i felt it. After choosing them, I didn't worry. I slept better, i knew everything was going to be what the Lord wanted. The couple had to decide if this is what they felt was right. I knew if they listened, truly listened, they would say yes.  They felt the same and began preparing. Although this isn't easy, i know it is what God wants. Nobody every pressured me otherwise. Adoption is beautiful.  Although this is something that has brought peace to my soul, i understand this is something you haven't received an answer for. I pray God will give that peace to you and you'll respect me, my family and my friends by leaving us alone. Please contact(Person And Number)

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